Unsent text message to Megan

Distance is no longer measured by the miles that separated us, but the all consuming silence that surrounds me now that you're gone.

I have never known loneliness like it.

i am honestly done with everything thats buggin my mind up. and idts ill ever recover from this ever again. i was the one messing things up always and i will always keep that tag of messing stuff up always. i shouldnt have let anyone inside yet i always did. kept my guards down when i shouldnt have.it always end with…

Wrap me in your arms again The adrenaline makes me shiver Show me that you're genuine, that I'm safe again That you came here different No time to define, but before we get closer I ask if you love me, and you just shrug your shoulders

The work of a poor little man. Nothing but a none existing fool. Don't hide come out. Men don't fear . I don't fear you none do females gonna know EVERYTHING

Or you think you do. You think I’m just waiting in the wings you’re so important, well you were my love. You were. And with how u treat me I’m trying desperately to hang onto it. You and me. I’m getting asked out and I know you don’t care. Or maybe you just think you don’t. Or maybe you just do really want me to be…

I provided support and security from day one through day 1460. What changed was slowly coming to terms that you were only going to use what I provided to keep manipulating everyone and not to do the promised self-care and years of hard work to deal with why manipulation is automatic.

I was relieved when you found a…