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Or you think you do. You think I’m just waiting in the wings you’re so important, well you were my love. You were. And with how u treat me I’m trying desperately to hang onto it. You and me. I’m getting asked out and I know you don’t care. Or maybe you just think you don’t. Or maybe you just do really want me to be happy even if it means being without you and I guess that’s OK. I just hope there comes a day where I love somebody as much as I loved you.
I get that you probably put my texts on silent maybe even my phone calls too, but I don’t think I’m that crazy on you being considered how long we were married and how much I thought you loved me but I’m trying to accept my new reality and I’m trying to understand that you actually want to repair things as much as you seem to hate me. Asking me to chill out when we spent every day together for the last 15 years is kind of absurd to me I believe I have given you a lot of space and I can’t believe you’ve been gone as long as you have. But if that’s what you have needed then go ahead and have fun but know that the string is getting thinner and I know how mean you have been on here I know that it was for me so I wish you only had the nerve to say it to my face. But that’s why I drink. It’s also why I’m trying to stop drinking because it’s not worth it. this isn’t worth it and my life needs me everything in my life needs me and I know you think that just because I get someone doesn’t mean I can keep them but if you don’t want me, I’d like to prove you wrong because I hope someday someone cares enough to actually help me and not just kick me when I’m down.
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