Unsent text message to Steven

Wrap me in your arms again The adrenaline makes me shiver Show me that you're genuine, that I'm safe again That you came here different No time to define, but before we get closer I ask if you love me, and you just shrug your shoulders

The work of a poor little man. Nothing but a none existing fool. Don't hide come out. Men don't fear . I don't fear you none do females gonna know EVERYTHING

Or you think you do. You think I’m just waiting in the wings you’re so important, well you were my love. You were. And with how u treat me I’m trying desperately to hang onto it. You and me. I’m getting asked out and I know you don’t care. Or maybe you just think you don’t. Or maybe you just do really want me to be…

I provided support and security from day one through day 1460. What changed was slowly coming to terms that you were only going to use what I provided to keep manipulating everyone and not to do the promised self-care and years of hard work to deal with why manipulation is automatic.

I was relieved when you found a…

I feel like everything has truly crumbled apart for me. I really tried to do my best. In everything. My best is never and will never be truly good enough. The process isn’t even fun. I feel so ******* tired crawling through life. It’s hard. The payoff is next to none. I have nothing to look forward to, and I’ve tried…

I can hardly breathe