Unsent text message to Samantha

I feel genuine fear, when I miss you. Because then I think maybe you miss me too, or you're probably still trying to forget me and what we were. We're strangers again, yet there's this feeling of closeness because of the people in our lives, the things we've been through.

I feel scared, that these memories I'm still…

Knows a little bit about you. Particularly about a not so little part of you. Just wanted to put that out there. Yes, I told him about that.

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Before i say hi let me take a moment to how i proud your words made me feel , but having the ability to feel all of that and notice all of that must been a hustle i helped pushing you into it , im sorry for the weight i added when i should ve helped, and thank you for ur bravery by saying this.

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As much as i…

You are still the one person my mind always returns to. If you wanted me, I would be yours. We could work toward building our lives so that they could fit together in a couple of years.

I’m tired of fighting against it. Just say the word. I would be yours.

I’m constantly caught in this loop of missing you and other…

358 to 356 Who is the other one?

As the screams resounded.

Just out of ear shot.

As my body failed me.

The poisons taking their course…