Unsent text message to Mary

it’s almost been three months since you decided you didn’t want to be with me anymore. you told me you still loved me, but that you believed it wasn’t the best thing for either of us. i know your parents had a lot of influence on that decision, and for a long time i was angry and confused about it. now, i understand…

I have had the time and space to untangle the Knot of domestic drama that surrounded us And found our thread The truths we were too scared to admit out loud To question my own second guessing of My gut feelings All too late

At least I don't have to hear that stupid ******* ring tone anymore. That song ain't about you no matter how many timea you hear it lol

I should've never let you in. This was mine. I am me, I'm all-in-one, one-size-fits-all, remember? As in, why did I share myself with you? I have three, and I gave you all. I have no metaphor or extensive language or anything of that such.

You just ******* suck.

I have been here, waiting for you to come back to me. I have been looking for you around every corner and in every face I see, but none of them are yours. So lately, I’ve been looking down.

You are the energy that runs the machine that is me, and I was programmed to love you. And yours was me, too.

You live inside my…

I see people in love all the time. The kind of love where they can freely be together without any problems, and no one bats an eye at them. Gosh, I wish we could have had that. I envy them because I can never have that, well at least not with you. I hate how things are, and I hate the internal conviction I get every…