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Darling!!! It took me way too long to only now realize that you're just as batshit crazy as I am.
Is that why you don’t want me anymore? Because I'm the mirror you never wanted to look into and see yourself staring right back?? Is it why you keep hating yourself since you can just never say no to me??? Is this why you had your crying breakdown saying you were broken????
Lover, you're not broken. You're oh so beautiful. Oh, please, don’t deny yourself this amazing piece of who you are. Lean into it. Don’t be hypocritical. Embrace it. Don't hate it. Love it.
We could be the most beautiful natural disaster to ever exist. Drop the overly helpful church-going BoyScout image and step out of this cocoon. You've kept yourself locked in this thing like a child wrapped in a security blanket they outgrew years ago.
But I finally see it. It's fraying, faltering, falling apart. And here I've just been watching you frantically trying to patch it up in painful attempts to make it as perfect as it used to be. You can't though. Not anymore, not after being with me caused it to erupt out of you in fits of strategically controlled panic. Had I noticed sooner I would have helped you shred it beyond any kind of capable repair.
Please finally stop lying and limiting yourself to me. You're a bit rough around the edges, but that’s ok. I know the steps of this dance with more grace than the bruises on my body would let you believe. Keep me in check and I'll help set you free.
Take my hand and come with me into the raging storm of the unhinged. The harbinger and adaptable of chaos. Skirt the edges of sanity and legality with me. I promise you'll have much more fun.
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