Unsent text message to Hailey

My mind stays stuck on you even when I know I am forgetting to pay attention to the world happening around me.

My thoughts drift and wander but my entire being orients around you, keeping me from falling too far away from myself.

I remember your warmth. I am entirely too preoccupied with the way you touch me.

My imaginati…

You’re the first and last person I will think of before I die

I tried and tried with you. I tried to set boundaries. I gave you all the compassion and understanding in the world. I let you walk all over me and continue to do all the things I told you hurt my feelings. And here we are. I finally set a hard boundary and all I get is a **** you.

I gave you a reality check because…

I don't know what happened to you. I thought we were soulmates. But I see now that your love was conditional. I heard you out so many times but you never once considered my perspective or my feelings. You threw them out. It's clear there is no space for me left in our relationship. I've shrank myself so much but I…

I said to you. YOU. What the **** is wrong with me? It's terrifying how I have hurt you, again and again. You, of all people. I don't ******* deserve to be happy, ever. I honestly don't. All the good, that one could possibly do for this world, won't nearly be enough to compensate. How could I think I could apologise…

Hey!! Thank God you found this. I was afraid i lost the most incredible woman i have ever met. Remember when we worked together? I Took you out back on break and pulled your pants down? You put your hands on the wall and i ****** you right there, in broad daylight. The rest of the day we laughed about how i was…