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I got the courage to completely view your profile, not just your photos.
I re-read the last two conversations we had and now see there wasn't anything there on your end. I misinterpreted the emojis and a few lines you sent. My mind built something out of nothing. I mistakenly held on to those 4 messages you sent in 2012. Thinking back, you might have been drinking on those nights.
I have come to realize that I might have misinterpreted everything for the past 15 years actually and all along all you wanted was to reconnect with me - an old friend.
The positive side to this is that I won't be logging in after midnight just to see your photos. I'll be getting some sleep. No more overthinking, reminiscing, or making up stories in my head. I want my old life back or at least the few pieces I can recover. Like when I had nothing but work on my mind and too busy for anything and anyone and perfectly content with that.
Should a message of yours appear again, I don't want my heart to flutter. I want it to sink. Remember when you called me 'offstandish'? That will be me again.
Congratulations on your new baby.
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