Unsent text message to Harper

glad you & ur kid appear to be safe. i hate you, please tell ur brother i said he looks cute in that hat

Let’s not rekindle old flames tonight shall we?

Thank you for being honest at the end that you were just using and exploiting me setting up situations to trigger me so you could access. Thank you for being honest that you never actually liked me or saw me as a friend.

You have never treated me as a human being when your life was going well because you never saw me…

We did everything together. We moved across the country together, then back again because we missed mom and dad. Lived together as adults, partied pretty damn hard together. But you were always there for me. You were the one I called, the one I knew I could lean on. We did that for each other.

Then you got sick…

I hate that you used me for a better experience to forget what happened to you. I wasn’t made for that. Im sorry you can’t get over what happened to you, and you kinda did it to me. You say you don’t want therapy but thats what you need. You messed up your hand when we fought over the phone then you sent me a picture…

I've never once stopped thinking about R. Every thought leads to him. He's a jerk yes for his past to me. But he sees and knows me better than S ever has. S emotionally abuses me to the point of daily thoughts of not being here anymore. R reignited my self worth with a couple tesx. S let me go. I feel trapped.