Unsent text message to Stephanie

been sorry about anything you’ve done to I posted. I apologized over and over again to make sure that you knew it wasn’t my intent and to try to fix what I had done you’re not sorry you’ll never apologize and it makes no difference to you whether or not I’m hurt or sad or. I don’t even want you to call anymore because…

good for you in finding somebody to love and moving on I’m not you. I can’t do that and honestly, I don’t wanna tell anyone anything because if I tell them they could use it against me later or maybe I’ll get attached and then they’ll leave. You showed me how not to love. Thank you I can make sure I’m protected.

i’ll never know why I wasn’t enough or why you couldn’t talk to me or why you couldn’t put an effort when I begged why everybody else was worth more to you. I’ll never know why any of it because I was never worth the talk.

Tonight is gonna be the last night. I cry myself to sleep for you don’t deserve never never tried.

I could just curl up next to you and sleep for 10 hours

today was long, I’m sleepy I don’t like the weekends anymore

for a few reasons

I hate you for making me cry again because you’ll never be you. I just saw what I wanted to see and you didn’t care or love me so I’m just left here missing somebody who didn’t exist.