Unsent text message to Jared

You can you know 🤷🏼‍♀️you are an adult last I checked. 35 years & my friend I thought. My fight was never with you. I also felt deep grief when I shared the creepy stuff with my ex. I know you are friends with him & I know you are a loyal guy & I think it’s great letting him park over there I just can’t tell if you…

I did feel a "click", or whatever that means.

I would have been willing to go through the pain if it meant experiencing the good parts.

About that day: I know what you mean. There are certain memories of that day which are stuck in my mind.

My mind has been a jumble too. I find it's worse when we haven't been speaking…

Sometimes the scenario in my head gets a little too good. I’ll be completely innocent one minute, and then somehow my imagination has taken a very questionable turn. And the worst part? You make it far too easy. A look, a smile, standing a little too close… and suddenly my mind is filling in the blanks you never…

hey you. life’s going okay since we cut contacts july 30th. almost been 3 whole months without talking to you. it still feels weird, i still look for you everywhere. i still love you. i haven’t moved on, i don’t think i ever will. i’ve been able to look at pictures and memories without breaking down, ive “locked in”…

I'm doing ******* great without you. I made it through the horrendous divorce and financial hole you put me in. I have a house now, I'm more than financial stable and I'm better than I've ever been. My dogs don't remember you, and I literally never think about you at all except when I passed by an abandoned Winnebago…

Despite myself, despite you hurting me…

I only want you to text or call or anything.

I’m not even motivated to move at this point I’m shutting all the way down. I’m depressed I hate this please please please come back