Unsent text message to Aiden

"do you ever read unsent messages"

Maybe one day you'll remember how in love we were, and how genuine it was. The laughter the jokes, the happiness. Effortless. You meant the world to me and then walked away, to a place you said you were not happy but needed to go back to because of your family.

I hope it's working out…

"Oh whats it gonna come to now To not come home and throw it all around Oh whats it gonna come to now To not go home and throw it all around

Oh, we hold on to the photographs

Oh, we long to the photographs"

One year later…

How you guys been? Noticed you all forgot my birthday again but thats alright, we're only family. I forgive ya.

Super uncool though how ONE of you is keeping tabs on me for god knows what reason, as i assure you i want nothing to do with any sort of drama. That's alright. I forgive you again. Three strikes and you're…

hey friend, Is that weird? Calling you that, I mean. Somewhere along the way, I decided that if I couldn’t have you the way a part of me wanted, maybe I could at least aim for friendship. Is that okay? I don’t know how well I’m doing. I still get butterflies when I see your name, your face, or anything that reminds me…

Don’t you ever think for a second I ever forgot what you all did. You are disgraceful, I cant believe you were capable of doing such things to me. You won’t ever be forgiven.

I wrote this watching you sleep by the fire, listening to the storm outside and the rain falling heavy, keeping rhythm with your breath.

It made me think about you. About us. About how you came into my life and, day by day, became so much of what I needed simply by being your imperfect self. Sitting here beside you, I…