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Im going through the worst phase of my life. And I thought we were close friends, you used to open up to me for emotional support, to which I reciprocated to the best of my power. But right now I feel alone, you don’t check up on me, even when you noticed how dull I look these days, you said that yourself. I tried to open up, I did, and when things were **** for me, you reached out, but in office you seem to ignore me like I don’t even exist, and during my full phase, I wasn’t in any shape to talk to anyone, hence I didn’t talk to you, because I really needed to be with myself, and reaching out felt guilty on my end tbh. I constantly feel I am burdening you with my problems. After a week you text me how am I doing because we don’t talk much. I am constantly confused whether I am overreaching myself by keeping in touch with you and you confuse me the most, all because I asked you out once last year. But you seem to come around when I am at my worst, I don’t know why, and I don’t know why you won’t do it now. Maybe I upset you in a way but based on how much I know you are never gonna let me know. I think it was best we stayed just regular colleagues and limit our interactions outside work. I am dying inside and I wish someone was kind enough to check in on me, even when I expect that to be you, but it’s wrong. So forgive me if I can’t maintain this connection. I am tired this year. You don’t need to worry about me, and I am really sorry for putting you in this position. I should have kept things to myself when things went hard. Writing over here because I’ll never have the courage or energy to send this to you. I am gonna draw a boundary between us unfortunately, even when it hurts me. But this time I’m done. I know you are not going through the best either, but I made myself clear that I am there whenever you need me. I don’t whether letting you know that was a bit too much from my end, but I tend to look out for people close to me, unfortunately no one ever has done that for me, hence I feel done and dusted. I wish you best for the rest of your life, for I no longer have space in my mind and heart to keep people close. I’m sorry.
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