Unsent text message to Amber

It’s not hidden from you, that I’m still deeply in love w you. But I’ve accepted that nothing will be the same. The amount of trauma u put me through, I still struggle to sleep every night but ik you’re doing just fine. The breakup isn’t affecting you. It never did as much as I thought. Why do I still crave your…

That every time I see a notification from you I thrust in the air out of pure joy

I’m over it

I’m over it all

I’ve already explained 282929 times what I needed

No masks…

it suppresses traumatic memories and over time, makes it so the pain goes away too

😔

I get it, maybe I deserve it, but dang you still take forever to reply.

I want to talk to you about what’s happening. I want to know what you think. I want to know how you felt back then. I want to know you again. Just hurry up and reply!

You could have talked to me. I could have been there for you.

I do think you shut me out because you didn't love me or want me anymore. Because if you did love me, why wouldn't you try to talk to me? Give me the opportunity to fix things?

You made me feel like I wasn't worth loving because I was struggling and not…