Unsent text message to Adam

i realized we do have something to talk about! we promised we'd discuss how/when we thought about each other while we were apart :)

that is cute. i will take it.

With love.

Remember your curiosity.

It's alright if that's too painful to manage right now.

Just promise me you won't forget that part of yourself.

Look again, through a different lens…

This completely broke me today, the first time we really hung out you spilt a pint all over the table, it was hilarious and adorable seeing your reaction.

This song makes me sad now...

I’m sorry I avoided you today. I know it was ******. I know you probably noticed, and I hate that I did it. The truth is, I was falling apart a little. I got too far inside my own head, everything started spiralling, and suddenly facing you felt impossible. Not because I didn’t want to see you. Because I did. Too…

You knew all about him before you sent him my way . That whole thing was orchestrated . I just why why would you do that to someone knowing my history? It was so traumatizing. If you want to associate with scum like that that’s fine but why did you bring that freak around me?

but I just hate how ******* much you destroyed my mental Health