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You know how I feel about you, I’ve told you so many times.
You know how much I’ve been hurt in the past.
You used to be the one whose words made me feel like I could go through everything.
You were kind to me, affectionate, made it feel like I deserved to be loved, even at my worst.
You used to ask me what’s wrong when I was upset and try to make me feel better.
It used to be so clear with you.
But I felt the shift.
You’ve changed.
You’ve gone distant.
I was the one who made you happy, you told me many times before.
Now it’s nothing.
Your words just feel empty now, like a drop of water against a wildfire.
You said you still care. You said nothing has changed.
But I’m old enough to recognise the shift.
Even small. Even tiny.
It’s here.
So please, just be honest.
Be honest that everything has changed.
Be honest that I’m not that person for you anymore.
Just rip the bandage off. Let it hurt for now.
Let me feel the pain.
And let me go.
Just rip me with the truth instead of sweet lies.
Be honest and hurt me if that’s how you feel.
Let go of the chain around my heart even if it hurts.
Just tell me I’m not the one you want anymore.
Let me feel the pain.
So I can finally let go.
Because I’m stuck here.
Suffocated. Scared. Anxious.
Of not knowing the truth.
Whether you still want me or not.
Unable to leave because I care too much.
Because even the tiniest drop feels like a hope.
Even in the drought.
I still seek you.
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