Unsent text message to Noah

You knew all about him before you sent him my way . That whole thing was orchestrated . I just why why would you do that to someone knowing my history? It was so traumatizing. If you want to associate with scum like that that’s fine but why did you bring that freak around me?

but I just hate how ******* much you destroyed my mental Health

When are you coming back? Will I ever see that adorable face of yours again?

Since 15 i stood by your side . While you were 21 and had nothing to your name

Gave you everything and did everything for you . Cooked cleaned raised our family worked full time . Made sure you had the cannabis you said yiu needed to stop you been like your physically abusive dad . Brought other women to our bed to…

I don't mean that I'm going to sit here and put my life on hold. I don't mean I'm going to keep reaching out, trying to persuade you, or waiting for some imaginary date when you'll suddenly be ready.

I'm living. I'm working. I'm making friends. I'm swimming and cycling and singing and laughing and building a life that…

I feel silly that I allowed myself to start catching feelings for you. Which makes what happened yesterday feel so unsettling.

I'm not insecure, I don't need you to tell me how pretty I am or to build me up. I am a fully formed human, I know I'm pretty, I know I'm an amazing catch. But for you to tell me I was being…