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I’m sorry I avoided you today. I know it was ******. I know you probably noticed, and I hate that I did it. The truth is, I was falling apart a little. I got too far inside my own head, everything started spiralling, and suddenly facing you felt impossible. Not because I didn’t want to see you. Because I did. Too much. So I hid. And the stupidest part was wondering… Did you even notice? Did you notice I wouldn’t look at you? Did you wonder why? Did you feel my absence at all? Or was it just another day to you? Would you have noticed if I disappeared completely? Because I’m struggling with all of this more than I let on. Today I couldn’t face you. Not because I didn’t care. Because I care about you in a way I’m not supposed to. And I think that’s what scares me most, that this could mean everything to me, while to you, it could mean nothing at all.
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