Unsent text message to Kayla

Since 15 i stood by your side . While you were 21 and had nothing to your name

Gave you everything and did everything for you . Cooked cleaned raised our family worked full time . Made sure you had the cannabis you said yiu needed to stop you been like your physically abusive dad . Brought other women to our bed to…

I don't mean that I'm going to sit here and put my life on hold. I don't mean I'm going to keep reaching out, trying to persuade you, or waiting for some imaginary date when you'll suddenly be ready.

I'm living. I'm working. I'm making friends. I'm swimming and cycling and singing and laughing and building a life that…

I feel silly that I allowed myself to start catching feelings for you. Which makes what happened yesterday feel so unsettling.

I'm not insecure, I don't need you to tell me how pretty I am or to build me up. I am a fully formed human, I know I'm pretty, I know I'm an amazing catch. But for you to tell me I was being…

they always think i'm going to be mad when i find out they lied but i almost never am

I know it’s been about.. two months of not talking. I still miss you. I still wish things didn’t have to end but… they did. I’m not betting on it but if we could make things work I’d like to focus on that in a heartbeat. But then I’d.. really have to ask what changed. On my end I’ve found new hobbies, gained my…

My family held me and cried with me when I finally told them what you did to me. I let them see how much I was hurting. I needed them, and they were there. For a little while, I didn’t have to carry it all alone.