Unsent text message to Matthew

This completely broke me today, the first time we really hung out you spilt a pint all over the table, it was hilarious and adorable seeing your reaction.

This song makes me sad now...

I’m sorry I avoided you today. I know it was ******. I know you probably noticed, and I hate that I did it. The truth is, I was falling apart a little. I got too far inside my own head, everything started spiralling, and suddenly facing you felt impossible. Not because I didn’t want to see you. Because I did. Too…

You knew all about him before you sent him my way . That whole thing was orchestrated . I just why why would you do that to someone knowing my history? It was so traumatizing. If you want to associate with scum like that that’s fine but why did you bring that freak around me?

but I just hate how ******* much you destroyed my mental Health

When are you coming back? Will I ever see that adorable face of yours again?

Since 15 i stood by your side . While you were 21 and had nothing to your name

Gave you everything and did everything for you . Cooked cleaned raised our family worked full time . Made sure you had the cannabis you said yiu needed to stop you been like your physically abusive dad . Brought other women to our bed to…