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There’s a song “I can’t wait to get you off my mind” and that’s how I feel. I’m so exhausted from this never-ending loop you left me in. You couldn’t say your piece or how you felt, so you sent me a playlist? Seriously??? Songs about loving me, songs about not knowing who you are. I need you to grow up, start healing. Learn to love yourself, learn how to communicate. Get a job that actually takes care of you and your needs and appreciates your work ethic. Be able to talk through a disagreement without running away like a coward. Without shutting down. Babe seriously, please get some help, go to therapy. I hope you can do all of these things in the next few years. Because I am always going to love you. The fact that still I love you after everything and am still on a loop about you says that it’s real because I can’t choose it, I just do. If I could choose I would move on from you because you are plainly not good for me as the person you are now. I deserve better communication and someone who takes care of my heart and how sensitive I am. I loved you with everything I had and I just felt so abandoned. But I forgive you. I just want you to be the best version of yourself. To be happy, healthy. To grow from this. So see you in 3 years? I’ll be in a much better place financially and will have done so much work on myself. I’ll learn how to trust better. I’ll move out of this god forsaken city. Will you grow too? In 3 years- will you start over with me? If not I hope you can grow anyway. I want that for you. I miss you so much A.
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