Unsent text message to Addison

I always loved the way you looked at me, but now you dont. Eyes that once sparkled when I walked into the room, now do their best to avoid me.

I always loved the way you laughed with me. Now everytime I hear it, it feels like youre laughing at me.

I always loved the way you smiled. Now when I see you smile I know its…

I did hope I would share this victory with you. But ill celebrate this win alone. Things weren't really working out. But this today proved then when I really go after something I can succeed. So, the next thing I want is a relationship with my kids. Not a female. Females will come because I've been hitting the gym and…

We aren't on emotional speaking terms, but you’re the only person I feel comfortable telling this to. Everyday feels harder and harder than the last, and I’m losing myself in the process. I don't want to carry on with this, it’s all becoming too much. I wish we could go back to the days where we just went out…

I think sometimes I reached for you for the same reason you reached for me. I was lonely or I needed someone. For whatever it’s worth I do understand I’m someone that you only reached to occasionally and that never considered me a friend. I know you never liked me I know you never cared. I just served a functional…

I know its not my business anymore but i cant help but ask. I dont want to be the girl stuck on you while youre courting another. Every time i think about texting you, i imagine youre with another girl and you rolling your eyes at the notification. It sets me right in the moment but the long term effects that has on…

Dear A, Idk why I let you use me again. I had known you for over 2 years, knew exactly what you were like, and let you do it anyway. I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. I knew I shouldn’t have but I did it anyway. You’re a pathological liar and you don’t care about me at all. You are toxic, manipulative…