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For a while now, getting over you was never something I thought was possible. Even now I’m still somewhat convinced you were the one and maybe it was just wrong timing and we will be together in the future. Even then, I can feel reality closing in on me. I know that this feeling is just hope, there is no truth to it, there is no influence it has on the universe. If truly know you at all, I know that you have moved on. I’m not saying you are with anyone or anything you just literally are mentally checked out from me. I give nothing to your life anymore. I don’t affect the way that you feel or the things you do. Sadly, you still do for me. BUT I feel it slowly dripping off of me. Just like I know you are gone, I know this feeling won’t last forever and I’m someone who hates that phrase. Knowing it won’t last forever doesn’t make the pain I still have any less. I still miss you but I know it means nothing. I personally think that’s progress. I used to convince myself that if I missed you hard enough or explained my sadness enough that you would change your mind and come back. The thing is, I’ve always known you just aren’t that kind of person. You never will be. You were never my person. You were just a lesson from the universe that I was forced to learn. I hate those. I really hope I don’t get another one. If the universe sends me someone else I hope I do enough to keep them and I hope they value me enough to actually stay.
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