Unsent text message to Brittany

I’m sorry for every negative feelings I’ve caused you and all the waiting and uncertainty about our future. I loved you and I still do. I miss you a whole lot but what I did to you can not be forgiven. I understand it’s not my place to decide if you forgive me or not but I don’t want to keep dragging you along knowing…

I guess I should take you not responding as the hint. You promised you wouldn’t ghost but that didn’t last that long. I guess you lied and said everything to just make me happy. I should’ve know it was never a see you later but goodbye

But I have to because it’s the only option I have that is right. This isn’t what I wanted but it is how it is and it hurts.

It will be slow but soon I will eventually go and finally leave you alone.

I woke up thinking about you. Still hoping one day I'll wake up to your text. I made a promise to myself to start loving myself again, though. That means letting you go in the fullest possible. I wish nothing but the best for you, really. I hope you find out where you're going. I hope you remember the good times we…

I’ve been thinking about you since I first met you. I’ve never been inlove with anyone else and I realize now it’s because I’ve been inlove with you my entire life. I heard your voice that day and I knew I’ve been searching for you. I knew I’ve been living just to meet you. Just to be with you. Imagine a broken doll…

Sometimes I look at you and just feel sad. Not because I’m sad about us now, but because I’m sad about everything we had to go through to get here. I hate that we had to hurt each other so much before we found our way back. I love you. I love our little life, our stupid laughs, our plans, and knowing you’re the person…