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You shamed me
You told me how much you loved me but at the same time called me every name under the sun
When you did it, did it make you feel powerful?
Telling me I wasted the best years of my life even though we both know the real living starts after 30.
Are you angry I didn’t follow in your foot steps? While I was out living life you got into another relationship
Are you happy living the life I did when we were apart?
Are you now “wasting the best years of your life?”
I go back and fourth
Did you love me? Did you not?
If you really loved me… you wouldn’t shame be just bc I’ve walked a different path than you have.
I wish you could see we’ve both acquired knowledge and wisdom along the way.
I’m not here to hurt you
I tried to show you what unconditional love felt like
And again, I think I repeated the same pattern of transactional love that I have with my mother.
Did you love me?
Did you take me on all those trips to prove that no one else will?
And in the end, you left too.
You told me I relied on you to much
In the end I think it was destined to end up that way
With each day comes a new transition, a new chapter turned and another day without you.
Some days it hits hard
And some days I quietly let you go
Will I see you in the next life?
Probably not
Am I okay with that?
Some days
Some days I’m not
Only time will tell when I pass you on a mountain said
Till next time my love
It’s never goodbye, just till next time.
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