Unsent text message to Haley

I woke up thinking about you. Still hoping one day I'll wake up to your text. I made a promise to myself to start loving myself again, though. That means letting you go in the fullest possible. I wish nothing but the best for you, really. I hope you find out where you're going. I hope you remember the good times we…

I’ve been thinking about you since I first met you. I’ve never been inlove with anyone else and I realize now it’s because I’ve been inlove with you my entire life. I heard your voice that day and I knew I’ve been searching for you. I knew I’ve been living just to meet you. Just to be with you. Imagine a broken doll…

Sometimes I look at you and just feel sad. Not because I’m sad about us now, but because I’m sad about everything we had to go through to get here. I hate that we had to hurt each other so much before we found our way back. I love you. I love our little life, our stupid laughs, our plans, and knowing you’re the person…

You were my best friend for a large part of my adult life. Knowing you were at home is what helped bolster me against a lot of hardship in those years.

I miss your laugh. Your sense of humor. The joy you found in all your little hobbies. I miss being close to you.

Letting go of my best friend, to preserve what love…

I’ve started to realise that after every good moment, there always seems to be a bad one waiting. And today was the bad one. I smiled at you, and you gave me a blank look. Not just once. All day. And ****, it hurt. Because how can you look at me like I matter one day, then make me feel like I don’t exist the…

After everything that happened, even the parts you probably don't know about, I don't hate you. You spent eight years refusing to even look at me because of something you did and decided it was easier to push me away then to just talk to me. I know I had my part in it, but I don't think you realized, or just didn't…