Unsent text message to Steven

You are the only person that I have ever loved, and I’m sorry for placing that burden upon you.

Hey Bubba,

It’s been 34 days. I know I should’ve moved on by now, and honestly, I thought I had. I thought I was finally okay. But now that I’m alone with my thoughts again, I find myself missing you.

I miss the old you

The person I dated, the person I thought I knew. I miss your voice, even though I don’t get to hear it…

JP, I know this sounds crazy, but I think I love you.

I know I shouldn’t, I know that you said you weren’t looking for a relationship, but then you keep changing your mind and coming back to me. We’re in this casual/hookup dynamic that you initially didn’t want but changed your mind and decided you did. And I just want…

G,

What matters right now is that you’re reading this. For a while, I thought maybe I could keep talking into the void of this little corner of the universe.

But eventually, the silence got too loud.

And you came too close…

It’s freeing To not be bitter.

But instead thankful,

For what was. For what it is now.

Life is good. Love is everywhere…

How the hell does he get everything, I wanted in life? Everytime he ***** up a relationship, the ex always comes running back. I literally was in a relationship longer than him but I guess that’s just my luck. I’ll be sounding selfish for a second but I’m normally chill, but what the ****, I was supposed to be engaged…