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I don’t know how to “break up normally”. I wish you knew how sad I am. How I miss you. How it’s not all bad in my head. How I’m processing and crying all the time. I don’t know how to move through this with you. I wish you could see how you made me feel invisible sometimes. Or how undervalued I felt. And how I did try to talk to you or bring stuff up to you and you would make me feel like I was the problem. I also wish you could see how much guilt and shame I feel. Going over everything in my head, how I could’ve acted differently or why I’m so messed up and insecure. I hope we can both move on and heal and look back fondly. Not just remembering the pain but how much we really did love each other. I wish we could somehow do this together but we can’t.
Please don’t hate me and please try to understand why I can’t talk to you right now. You’ll probably think this is so corny and dumb. Sorry I got so mad on our last call, I don’t want that to be our last conversation.
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