Unsent text message to Amber

why can’t you admit you did me wrong by wanting me out for another thats when you changed from sweet to sour by making me feel less of a man and unwanted or left out , the put downs and then turn around and say it was all my fault so look I’ll take take accountability for my mistakes you should do the same your not…

I pray for you every night. That you don't get too stressed at work and that you're always happy. I dreamt about you 2 nights ago, maybe it's because I'm thinking about you too much lol. It was nice to see you again, even if it was onlyba dream.

Here I am every night, thinking about you and missing you to death. I start wondering if you miss me. I read old texts. I can't bare to look at my gallery. I cry over us daily. But tonight you decide to email me, and my heart skipped. Drunk? Angry? Mean? Do you miss me? All these possibilities run through my head. I…

Tbh, the look on your face hurt far worse than anything you said to each other and I heard a lot.

You looked content, you were actually paying attention and listening. You were calm and receptive, most importantly I could tell that you were being honest.

I never once saw that look when we spoke, you were absent and…

You were stationed in a country halfway across the world. We were just barely 19. You left and I was the one left to pick up the pieces of you no longer living with me and my family. I had to pack up your clothes, your childhood memories you grabbed from your parents before leaving. Your car sat in my driveway for a…

a wave of joy came over me. You hadn’t seen me yet too so I had a moment to calm myself but as you already know, the moment we were in front of each other you felt like home, I thought I might actually finally be home.

This had never happened before, you made me feel new things, you made me feel happy, you made my life…