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I can't stop thinking about you
I know it's been a while since we last truly spoke to each other, we're practically strangers again, but I can't stop thinking about you.
I know you're happy now, you've got a new partner and I'm still with mine, but I can't stop thinking about it. Not in a romantic sense, but a general kind. I don't want us to be together anymore, I haven't for a few years now, I'm happy with her and I know you're with him, and I'm happy you're with him, but I can't stop.
Everyday, it feels like I can only think about you, how you're doing, if you're fine or if you're happy. You occupy the cracks and crevices in my mind that refuse to be sealed. All I can think about is you.
I don't know why, but I wish I could stop. It feels like I'm being haunted by you, or an aspect of you, like there's a part of me that still feels linked to you even tho you haven't thought about me since we stopped talking.
I don't want to feel haunted by you anymore, I want to move on, but I know it's easy for me to say even though I keep trying to reach out to you, to talk again. You don't deserve to deal with this heavy ****, you didn't deserve it in high school and you don't deserve it now, but I keep coming back to you with heavy ****. It's probably why we don't talk anymore.
I'm sorry I keep dumping my heavy issues onto you.
I hope we get to see each other again tho, or meet somewhere. I still want to be friends, but I know I can't force it to happen.
Whether you want to start talking again, I just hope you're okay and that I haven't scared you away completely.
I'm sorry I can't forget you. I don't know why or what's wrong with me. I just know that I can't stop thinking about you, and that I can't forget you
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