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Here I am every night, thinking about you and missing you to death. I start wondering if you miss me. I read old texts. I can't bare to look at my gallery. I cry over us daily. But tonight you decide to email me, and my heart skipped. Drunk? Angry? Mean? Do you miss me? All these possibilities run through my head. I guess I wasn't expecting you to tell me you deleted me from your life, and that you aren't my person. I know we broke up... but we have before and still loved eachother. This time is different. I ended it. And I know it wasn't just going to get better this time. But I still love you. Why did you have to hurt me? I was already on the verge of a break between losing you and everything else going on. I think that there's someone else in your life. It's been 3 or 4 weeks now, and sometimes you barely waited 12 hours. So I know it's probably the case. It makes me so sick. It makes my chest hurt. It makes me want to fall to my knees. The thought of you with anyone else. How do I let go like you did? It hurts so bad. I feel so stupid. And here I am, not even being able to finish this because I am crying yet again. I don't wish this on anyone. Goodnight M
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