Unsent text message to Barbara

As much as I probably should resent you, I don’t. Days go by and you don’t cross my mind. Then he’ll make a certain expression, and suddenly you come flooding back. Sometimes it all feels like a fever dream. Like maybe none of it was real. Without him, I think I might actually question whether you were. Do you ever…

you ghosted me. after using me.

I am still grieving the 90% beautiful thing that we had. You were my best friend and my 24/7 partner. ***** so hard🥲

I freaking hate that idk how to process that other 10%!!!

It makes me think, when you said that the relationship wasn’t all bad. Did you mean that about yourself? That YOU’RE not all bad?

If so… oh my…

you are ten gallons short of a hat.

you like to pretend i did something terrible to you so that people take your side when we fight, but at this point your accusations are so pathetic and stale that it's really just the same two people fellating you for the same stupid stuff they've always fellated you for and it's…

It makes me so ******* sucker as I tell you for the third time how I feel and again you show me a coldness as if I wasn’t telling you that I feel miserable, every time you feel bad I put my hand on my heart and squeeze my head to be able to tell you something at least coherent that maybe it doesn’t make you feel…

I may act immaturely, but I will always acknowledge my wrongs when I recognize them. I want to start by saying that while I am a hurt person, I do not hurt people—at least never intentionally. When I failed to reassure you, it didn't come from a lack of trust. It came from hurt. I’m used to people leaving, but my…