Unsent text message to Owen

you ghosted me. after using me.

I am still grieving the 90% beautiful thing that we had. You were my best friend and my 24/7 partner. ***** so hard🥲

I freaking hate that idk how to process that other 10%!!!

It makes me think, when you said that the relationship wasn’t all bad. Did you mean that about yourself? That YOU’RE not all bad?

If so… oh my…

you are ten gallons short of a hat.

you like to pretend i did something terrible to you so that people take your side when we fight, but at this point your accusations are so pathetic and stale that it's really just the same two people fellating you for the same stupid stuff they've always fellated you for and it's…

It makes me so ******* sucker as I tell you for the third time how I feel and again you show me a coldness as if I wasn’t telling you that I feel miserable, every time you feel bad I put my hand on my heart and squeeze my head to be able to tell you something at least coherent that maybe it doesn’t make you feel…

I may act immaturely, but I will always acknowledge my wrongs when I recognize them. I want to start by saying that while I am a hurt person, I do not hurt people—at least never intentionally. When I failed to reassure you, it didn't come from a lack of trust. It came from hurt. I’m used to people leaving, but my…

I still really miss you. We weren’t exes, strangers, or even slept together anything like that. Just both avoidants, I guess. But we definitely bonded and I ruined it because I got scared my feelings got too deep and pushed you away. But it’s been 2 months now. All you did was leave me alone which is the respectful…