Unsent text message to Stephanie

I don’t have your number anymore. If you want to reach in you’ll find a way…

what a sticky door to try and pry open again.

I don’t like sticky things

Unless? nvm

I won’t be opening that door bc you shut it. Well you didn’t shut it but you like did the thing where you scoot ur chair close to a door and lightly nudge it with your foot until it’s cracked open just alittle. but to me, that’s the…

Hey Babe,

I have had a bad day, you know this already, you knew before I did.

I have to ask: How did you know? Don’t answer, I‘m not sure I even want to know.

I’m so ******* mad at myself right now. I tried to cut you off 3 times in 24hrs and every time you held firm „I‘m right here. Stop thrashing.“…

We were inseparable. I made you so happy, as you did me. It was so equal, so easy to trust and so fast. I never doubted you, not really. I was your number one fan. You were my best friend. I adored you. We were the best reason I ever had to reach the days end. That's all I needed. It was so totally enough to come home…

My PHQ and GAD score won’t be great tomorrow.

Nothing different over here.

i'm trying really, really hard. you said this "really sucks". i don't think you know how badly this sucks for me, at least. it sucks more than most things that have happened to me, and that's saying A LOT. Some days just feel like a lie. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? I only want to share all this BLAH with one…