Unsent text message to Elizabeth

You know exactly why I stopped reaching out.

You got angry, lashed out at everyone, and said things that didn’t need to be said. Then somehow the people you hurt were expected to come back and convince you to apologize.

And we did.

We actually had to beg you to take responsibility for something you had already done…

Let me love you. Let me make you feel good. Let me take care of you.

Do you remember like the 2nd time that we ******? As soon as i got like halfway in you were like "oh god!" I thought that was ******* hot. I don't know if it was just a line u been using for years or whatever but damn it turned me on. I don't think I lasted much longer than that. Or on valentine's day. You pulled my…

If I call you? If I reach out? Then I look a fool, you get it? It’s your turn. You did me wrong so just ask me my number

The last months before we broke up I spent working late into the night on calls with colleagues finishing the project I promised would make us able to have a good life together.. it paid off.

3 days after we last saw each other, I didn't only get the 100k bump I was telling you about, I got 110k, and even got a new…

This time of year reminds me of when we first met. I still look back on it so fondly but it’s bittersweet when I know I tainted those memories in ur mind. I can’t believe that was two years ago.

I still hope we can reconnect one day. I’ve started therapy and medication. I’m moving out of the apartment. My grades have…