Unsent text message to Grace

Dear T If you turned up today and apologised I’d give up everything, if you took accountability I would be with you, my friends and family of course wouldn’t be happy but for you I’d leave them behind.

we could run away together and I’d keep your secret and love you

By the way, I was never upset with you or felt like you “manipulated” me in any way, shape, or form. I was always planning to tell you about the information Mr. SketchPants revealed to me in regards to what might happen at the Krusty Crab, and about what I had told the rest of the kitchen crew in relation to their…

I'm pretty but not so petty not to hope you have a good birthday you were my best friend for so many years J. I hope you get everything you wanted and that you don't think of me even once for the whole day. I hope you get lots of love and have a wonderful time with our daughter. I hope you get the snacks you like and…

i wonder if you ever think about us or if it’s easier to pretend we just stopped existing.

you were there one day, and then suddenly you weren’t. no conversation, no explanation, nothing. just silence.

and honestly, i don’t even know what i expected from you anymore. maybe not an apology, maybe not some big explanation…

Or is it too much of a reminder of us.

did you know that ravens sometimes bring gifts to humans they like? little things they’ve found - a bottle cap, a shiny stone, something that caught the light just right and made them think, for reasons we can only guess at, that someone else ought to have it.

i think about that sometimes. how strange it is to find…