Unsent text message to Alyssa

I licked the moon’s essence And drenched myself in his light.

Comforted by his lies, I sacrificed my flower nectar.

Devoured by his eyes.

I left with pain between my tights And a heart no longer alive.

If there is ever any reconciliation, communication, or anything between us again, it has to come from you. Because as far as I'm concerned, you will NEVER hear from me again. You know where I live, where I work, you have every possible way to contact me, for ****'s sake, you still work with my dad. If you ever truly…

People often ask me how I know it’s her.

Truthfully, I didn’t always know.

At first, I couldn’t explain why my heart held onto that certainty when everything around me seemed to tell me to let go. But then her absence brought me closer to God. In the silence she left behind, I found myself reaching for Him in ways I…

Over ten years ago, you looked at me with pure hatred and said the words that broke me for good.

"If you loved me better, you would have noticed I was using again."

I couldn't stay after that.

I couldn't keep watching you choose everything else but me…

Didn’t say it today, but I usually do. It would have been a stupid response to how you greeted me this morning, and I was legit startled. Glad you laughed when I gasped and said “****. Holy ******* ****.” So glad you laughed! Tbh it is the highlight of my day when you look right at me, and you smile. Man you are so…

I’m a man on a mission,

with nothing left to lose,

I take every beautiful thing

and find a way to bruise…