iMessage
I am not a patient person. But I wait for you.
I am stubborn. But I let go of my wants for you.
I do not love many people. But I love you.
I am empathetic af. But I cant understand you rn.
I am so depressed because I feel like you dont care or see how hard i am trying to connect with you. The last few days I thought you did. You were reaching out and showing interest again but you easily become quiet and detach when things get better. I have come to understand that nothing you do really has much intention behind it. You just do what feels right in the moment and I look into it too much. Finding "signs" everywhere like we both tend to do.
You told me where you stand. I am chosing to believe that now. Because believing you care the same way i do is just a fantasy. You're too good for me. Its clear as day. We both know it.
I am tired. I need space. Like you often do. I am not my best and you dont deserve what I am right now. I wouldnt be any good to you like this. So i will tell you this when or if you reach out next. I need rest. I need a reset.
Something about you makes me so happy and sad. The potential excites me. But the distance and hurdles **** me off.
I know I am just a piece of something larger to you. You became everything to me and thats not fair to either of us. I need to make you smaller. Like you have done to me. I dont want to but I am going to try. For us.
Message Unsent