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I'm finally realizing I miss you because it was a reality check of what I'll never have. It's as though life has been screaming to change my goals and dreams. Fatherhood, creating a family, and sharing my love with an individual is not in my cards. I'll never have those things and thats okay. Not every man is meant to be a father or have a family. I just hope I can wrap my mind around that someday.
On the plus side, I got you on a path that no one else has before. Ive been stuck in my selfish pitty mindset, instead of realizing the good I did for your life. Losing my mind after losing you, doesnt negate the good things I did. Selfishly, I will tell myself now that I showed you real love, my family showed you genuine kindness and familial bonds. I now know you will create a family and be an amazing mother because of your terrible upbringing. You will be fiercely loyal, protective, and an ideal role model for your children and husband. Thank you for showing me my true colors and my insecurities. Thank you for being part of my life. Thank you for getting yourself help and healing. Thank you for your love. I'll love you forever and ill try to start loving myself. Goodbye goofy goober. **** this chungus life.
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