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or if you even cared. but you didn’t. and your text back to me said so. i was hoping that you would fight. fight for me. fight for this. but you didn’t.
I catch myself checking my phone for a message that isn’t ever coming.
I was so happy to have you back in my life and hopefully vice versa. But the way you just let it go so easy, told me you were ok with it. I just wanted to hear that you wanted me to stay. You didn’t want me to go.
knowing it’s easier for you to let go of me rather than her, it proved that what i was probably doing the right thing. i didn’t want it to be tho. I wanted it so bad but I guess I was the only one.
seeing that picture you posted after you said i was your “happiness” and “heart beat spike” was a punch to the gut. it told me that everything you said was a lie. it wasn’t true.
how can you tell me you didn’t lie when you told me you loved you and then 2 weeks later post that. i guess you can’t be that “unhappy”
I don’t matter to you. Not in the way she matters more to you. I guess that’s why it won’t work.
so i had to end it. i had to let go. it was the hardest decision i’ve ever had to make. my finger hovered over that send button for so long. SO LONG.
But in the end, im the only one who hurts. Always will be. You’re just fine without me. I hate this hurt. I hate yearning this much for you. Maybe I cared too much. Maybe I had too many expectations. And maybe after all this time it was just one sided.
i’ll be there this weekend. so close, yet so far. i was supposed to be there to see you, and well now im not. and idk how to feel about that.I wish you cared that I wouldn’t be stepping off that plane to you and a car instead.
Like Peter Parker said “you mean everything to me and i’ve been trying to live my life without you but i can’t. i love you”
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