Unsent text message to Brittany

There's not anything really truly special about you it's just YOU it's not one in particular thing I won't lie and say that it's. BECAUSE THE MOST SPECIALIST THING ABOUT YOU IS YOU

The bittersweetness of being in love along with the longing to be with you and the sadness that maybe in another reality I am has consumed my mind. An endless unattainable future that feels possible because I can see it in my mind like a memory yet in reality it’s a flower on a high peak and trying to get to it will…

It was no longer any use for me to keep texting you. If you remember how I used to be, I could find any excuse or any reason to reach out. I was desperate for us to work. I wanted us to be together so badly that, even when I knew our relationship wasn’t good for either of us, I still kept trying. I kept holding on…

You get this tight curl at the edges of your eyes when you smile. You squint. You’re a squinting smiler. I hate the way your face lit up when you made a remark about my shampoo. You asked if it was new, you liked it. I can’t forget that face you made. **** you and that ******* face. **** u **** u **** u **** u I miss…

Of all thw things i have said about you, of all the awful things, really. I can at least say you weren't fat. You were basically everything else i can think of but the minute i told you that I wasn't going to sit here and watch you gain 100 pounds and that i would definitely leave you if you got over 145, which was…

Woke up and once again jumped straight into this thread. Trying to process, trying to ruminate in some fictitious world.

The truth is, we didn’t work out. The truth is I had this constant feeling that you didn’t prioritize me correctly. The truth is that I communicated this to you and you still weren’t able to change…