Unsent text message to Mark

You’re at the top of all of my recommended friends lists on every social media platform I use. You should add me. That would be the highlight of my day to get that request. Would you accept if I added you? I feel like that is too risky of a move for me to make right now since I was the one to reach out last. I feel…

I typed a long message, but I backspaced and deleted it all. I think it could all be put in a simple question.

I guess, a part of me really wants to know, if at any point in time did you feel the same way… As what I felt about you?

I've always had undeniable feelings for you from the day we met. Now that we are both exploring those feelings together, there is so much I want to say. It's too soon of course but after 5 years of friendship, you know me too well. You know what every sound I make, every facial expression means. I'll never be able to…

It’s actually so annoying that I do and I’m on this ******* website again writing this but I do

It’s not like a switch I can just turn on and off, you know

I suppose you still don’t know me well enough to know how devoted I get when I choose someone

It’s frustrating bc no matter what I say you’re going to doubt it too…

I know now that you never loved me. Yes, we are both happy now but you should have done the right thing by not screwing my chances with true happiness 5 years ago with someone who had the capacity to love me the way I need. I don't care if you think they are beneath me. They show me love, the way I've only dreamt of…

“You’re the best boyfriend I’ve ever had.” Then why did you ******* leave me?