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I look back at things and I see faults on both sides while navigating our life and the work surrounding gossip it was a lot of stress. Not that I wouldn't have kept trying to find a solution.
my biggest mistake out of it all. I mean even out of getting my back broke from the spiraling. My friend! k was cool I mean I looked up to the dude. He lowered his hand and pulled me out of some serious muck. He got me the job and helped me get there..... EVERYDAY! And looked how I thanked him. That was some *** *** ****. I couldn't take it. I felt like I was loosing ground with something that made me feel happy and loved. You played a big part in making me feel insecure in times and situations you definitely could have helped. Not that my insecurities are your problem but at the same time no need to step on the back of my head while my face was in the mud puddle. The way I chose to digest it all was not the way to go. As I saw the end nearing I scrambled to fix what I could. There was no fixing us but I knew there was something I could fix. I tried asking you but you said no so I asked your dad if he thought we could give K his job back and he agreed. But it was still a major loss.
I gave you my heart and when I did I asked you to be gentle. And you were. I was on cloud nine for sure. idk I better stop here. There's a lot of mixed feelings and I'm not sure how to feel about it honestly. the connection.... it was all too real. my heart still screams I love you while my head yells out ASSHAT! But my heart doesn't want to listen. I just hope your happy. And if you are then it was worth all the hurt it's caused besides the friendship lost.
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