Unsent text message to Nancy

I've been thinking a lot about you and everything that's happened. I don't know what to think...

I really love you so much, but sometimes I just don't understand you anymore. You tell me one thing, promise you'll try to be different, and the next day you do the same thing.

You make me feel so strange. Sometimes I feel…

Alright, I did my part. I reached out first. Again. No need to respond if you don't want to. I'll just know to dismantle the bridge on my way out for both of us. Goodnight and sleep well.

And I carry all of the trauma, my mind and body repressing it every day

I wait for the day

That it finally bursts out

😔

I’ve been trying to push this away.

I’m sure my feelings are because we are in close proximity or because my breakup hurt 6 months ago but I’m falling for someone I shouldn’t.

You’re just my coteacher; a girl. Hell I hated you when we met I was really just jealous everyone loved you and you were better at my job than I…

Whatever’s wrong with my brain means i have an attention span of a fish. Think of something to tell you what you mean to me And before i get to my phone, I’ve forgotten. I’m just glad that I’ve got you in my permanent memory and you’re the one I want to be with in the moment.

i don’t want to lose you permanently. but it’s always been me coming back to you. i need it to be you this time. i need to know you need me too.