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I've been thinking a lot about you and everything that's happened. I don't know what to think...
I really love you so much, but sometimes I just don't understand you anymore. You tell me one thing, promise you'll try to be different, and the next day you do the same thing.
You make me feel so strange. Sometimes I feel so special with you, and then like the worst person in the world, all because you got mad over something silly. And when I'm the one who gets mad or walks away, you apologize again and promise the same thing.
In a way, I think you don't know what it's like, that you're not ready for this, and that hurts me so much because while I'm falling apart inside, thinking I'm the worst person in the world and that I don't deserve you because we're so different, you go out, have fun, and the next day it's like nothing happened. It's so unfair...
Sometimes I want to drop all this drama and stop talking to you, stop getting close to you. I just can't because I'm always thinking about you, what you're doing, if you're okay, and the funniest thing is, if you've done your homework. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know whether to walk away or stay and see what happens, but oh well...
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