Unsent text message to Paige

Can we talk? I miss you

Well im watching someone go through some withdrawals from the same stuff you used to do or maybe still do idk because we dont talk anymore but i wonder how much of what our problems were really you just coming down and didn't want to tell me for some reason i would have probably reacted differently if you would've…

I still don’t know if you’ll ever see this. If you still check. I just hope you’re safe. I know in how much pain you are. Pain, I’ve caused you. All those months, hell, a year of suffering, because of my cowardice and selfishness. I really hope you’re reaching out to someone. I know I can’t be that person any more…

that you gave me an opportunity to prove you wrong. I wish that you knew how to be more empathetic. I wish you could understand what real love feels like. I wish you didn’t run from your emotions. I wish you kissed me first. I wish that I could go back to the day we met. I wish I could know your truth. I wish you left…

I want out of your game.

I want to stop having to be the one to strike conversation in order to have one.. if I dont you dont bother at all.

You couldnt care enough to even consider how I feel.

The things you put me through.. wanting me to act as if nothing ever happened. Keeping me low to keep the benefits while you go…

I still wish I never left