Unsent text message to Jada

Forgive me for my one-word response yesterday. I was upset, I will admit that.

Your words were basically confirmation for me.

Maybe we are better off as just friends.

I wish you had just told me how you felt…

Beauty can fade, you've gotta make sure what you're left with is still beautiful

I had a dream about you last night. I felt joy, curiosity and excitement seeing you. I haven’t seen you in almost 3 years now, yet you still cross my mind and dreams. Im sorry for how things ended with us, just know I loved you so much. We weren’t good for each other at the time. Sometimes I think maybe things would…

That was tentative outline of plan A

but it’s always been someone else with you. even as a facade, you have to realize how faulty that is, right? anyway, i shouldn’t have to ask. you didn’t have to ask for me to put you first, i just cared enough not to risk it. not how you did. i know we’re different. not reciprocating that doesn’t make you all big and…

I think it’s the unknown that keeps me here Suspended wondering why this is how I’m feeling I can usually tell these things I can tell what someone wants from me But not you . I’m confused and kinda hurt but I also understand I just want .. no I need transparency from at least someone in my life . If you want me to…