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I have a tendency to fantasize...
Anytime Ive ever been single I daydream about someone until they get a girlfriend or I find someone else. I've daydreamed about you for so long. You're gorgeous. Why wouldn't I? And those thirst trap weight lifting videos you posted? Ugh. Love them. So ******* much haha. You quit posting them, and then I uninstalled Facebook from my phone for my mental health so even if you are posting them again I'm not seeing them. Hate that, but the other day when you called me "babygirl" in that low voice... I was taken back. I've been thinking about it ever since.
My life is a hot ******* mess right now. I'm trying to be responsible by not making any new "friends" or not seeking out a relationship. But I keep finding myself drawn to you. I keep imagining how you'd feel if I was riding you... Feeling those abs underneath me... Grabbing onto those thick arms of yours... ANYWAYS 😅 I gotta chill. That's why I've been reaching out lately. Because I am SO CONFLICTED. I want to take a bite out of your ***... So ******* much.
I am not in a space where I could give anyone my full self or a responsible healthy relationship. Furthermore, I'm tired of the ********. The "right now" guys just to comfort me when I'm lonely but I have no business wasting time on. I want to build something real with someone. I can't do that without working on myself first. I really REALLY hope there is potential for us one day. That our paths will cross at the right place and right time. I just hope you forgive me when I put up resistance for now. It's not out of malice. It's in my best interest, and maybe yours too. For now just keep talking to me in that deep radio voice that drives me crazy 😏
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