Unsent text message to Linda

im clearly not an expert because it’s been so long and here i am still holding on but

i think im getting better at letting go

im accepting that you simply didn’t feel the same

and i of course don’t blame you, it’s not your fault you don’t feel a certain way towards me…

You suck for taking your new girlfriend on the trip you could never afford to take me on. You’re a ******* ******* and I hope she realizes what a loser you are and breaks your heart. I hope you fall harder than you ever have. I told it to the trees.

For helping me see that men ain't ****.

I wish you the best.

As much as I probably should resent you, I don’t. Days go by and you don’t cross my mind. Then he’ll make a certain expression, and suddenly you come flooding back. Sometimes it all feels like a fever dream. Like maybe none of it was real. Without him, I think I might actually question whether you were. Do you ever…

you ghosted me. after using me.

I am still grieving the 90% beautiful thing that we had. You were my best friend and my 24/7 partner. ***** so hard🥲

I freaking hate that idk how to process that other 10%!!!

It makes me think, when you said that the relationship wasn’t all bad. Did you mean that about yourself? That YOU’RE not all bad?

If so… oh my…