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JKC,
I hope you’re a little easier on yourself today
Yesterday was a lot.
It really made you test your boundaries, self worth, identity, even sanity
But it’s OK! Because at the end of the day I got you
I’m here for you
Even if you get disappointed again and again and again
And you try your best and come to the stark realization it’ll never be enough for that person
It’s OK!!!
You are enough
You’ll be enough for the right person
And you won’t have to wear a mask
Or be with someone that can only talk to you in one
You’ll find safety and comfort and warmth again somewhere
So it wasn’t there
Dust yourself off again
You didn’t die
You just grew
You grew boundaries
And realized what you are and aren’t okay with
And if that causes others to be angry or hurt or distant
Then just live in that discomfort
It’ll eventually pass
It always does
I really, really love you, J
I am a part of you
But we’re not two different people
We co-exist
One cannot live without the other
Don’t forget that
And always know I know you’re doing your best
I acknowledge it
It may be not enough for others
It may come off as manipulate, fake, insincere
But I know you better
I know the person you are
Tomorrow it’ll be 33 years we’ve been together
No one will know you better than I have because no one has been with you, every waking moment of the day with you, like I have
So always remember
What I say to you holds the most weight
Even if you don’t believe it
Even if others say it’s not true
Even if society tells you otherwise
You’re doing great
& you are so, so loved as you are
\- KD
P.S. thank you so much for pulling me out again last night. just because it hasn’t been shown to them, it doesn’t mean we don’t exist
P.P.S. I think this last username is the best one yet. one day we’ll share it with others when we’re ready. our artwork is as beautiful as ever
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